i never thought this day would come.
or rather, that this feeling would come. and what is interesting is the knowledge that set forth all these amazing feelings and realizations. a normal person would be devastated, i think. but then again, i was never anything near normal.
but what is important is the clarity with which i feel now.
i am relieved.
and i pray to God that everything will be okay.
it was to share my story to the one person who (it seems) needed it the most.
if i had more courage, i could have done something, said something to help. he was right there sitting in front of me and i let him go without telling him what i felt, what i knew from experience.
note to self: follow your instincts. and suck it up.
okay, fine… moving on…
*deletes every relevant post*